Archive | October, 2010

Baby Steps

20 Oct

Don’t be afraid to take a big step if one is indicated; you can’t cross a chasm in two small jumps.  ~David Lloyd George

Today I’m supposed to reflect on the goals and dreams I have for the future. This is a difficult one for me because I don’t normally make goals anymore. I just wander and see where the road leads me. However there are a couple that I could share. The first is the dream that spawned this blog. Ever since I had my first baby, my dream has been to have a large family. One full of laughter and love. Lots of children to fill my home with joy. As you can see, that dream is well underway. As a follow up to that dream, I wanted to share my journey with the world, so that others could read about and even feel the love and joy that fills my home. It’s why I started this blog, so that I could ramble on and share with others about the activity that makes my days so exciting.

Another more recent dream that is quickly becoming less dream and more goal is to move across the country to where my sister lives in Alberta. I lived in Alberta for two years before James was born and I loved it. Now that Linda lives there I am desperate to go back. I want to be near my family. My nieces and nephews. I crave the interaction with my sister on a more regular basis. I want Lola to get to know her godparents through more than just a week in the summer.

We’re plotting and scheming, crunching numbers and making plans. Who knows? Next year this time I may be blogging from the other side of the country. 🙂

Edited to Add: Oh and by the way, I know that I skipped yesterday and failed the NaBloPoMo challenge yet again, but I fell asleep early and had the first full night of sleep I’ve had in about six months. So I don’t regret it one bit.


Queen for a Day

18 Oct

Here’s a little something you may or may not have known about me. I don’t like to bend to conventional rules of “the way things are”. So when today’s assignment was to think of someone I would like to trade lives with for a day and why, I knew that the “right” answer is “no one” because I’m happy with my life the way it is. Which is totally true. I do love my life and wouldn’t want to be anyone else…but where’s the fun in that answer? So in the spirit of not giving in to convention…I would like to be this woman for a day:

Genevieve Cortese

Why? Because she goes to bed with this man:

Jared Padalecki

And that just might be worth switching lives for a day for. 😉

Silent Sunday

17 Oct

Skipping the project for one day. Instead I’m giving you this.

Happy Birthday Linda!

16 Oct

Today my sister is another year older. Well, not really, since we agreed that we would be 29 for eternity. She’s just 29 with a few years of experience.

I’m supposed to share a picture of myself again today, so I’ll share one of me…with Linda!

Not the best picture of me

So in light of staying 29 forever, here are 29 things I love about Linda:

1. She always knows what I’m thinking before I say it.
2. Her laugh
3. Her generosity
4. She’s a wonderful auntie to my kids
5. I can fit in her clothes. This is very important.
6. She just laughed at #5
7. She’s one of my biggest supporters on this blog
8. She gave me an amazing niece who became one of my dearest friends.
9. She doesn’t freak out if there are dirty dishes in my sink
10. We use words like “Drinkie” and “Bean” as insults
11. She’s totally unphased when I whip out my boob in front of her to feed Lola
12. She yells at people for me when I’m too tired and defeated to fight anymore
13. She was willing to wear a pink dress at my wedding even though it was SO not her color
14. Yet she was still able to talk me into doing red instead
15. And I liked it better than the pink because she has great taste
16. She likes my ideas
17. She’ll tell me I’m being stupid when I’m being stupid
18. She supports my decisions even when she doesn’t agree with them.
19. She also gave me a nephew who I couldn’t live without. I love you Adam!
20. She gives the best advice
21. She’s got my back
22. She’s beautiful inside and out
23. Even when we want to kill each other we love each other fiercely
24. No distance could ever put a wedge between us
25. We have a bond that is indescribable to anyone that hasn’t experienced anything like it themselves
26. She is my favorite person to watch “The Princess Bride” with because we both know all the words
27. Shopping with her is more fun than a carnival
28. She has a killer sense of humor
29. And even if I lost everything and was left destitute and alone, as long as I had Linda I would still be okay, because when it’s us against the world we come through it with flying colors.

I love you big sister. I miss you and can’t wait to see you again.

My Top Ten

15 Oct

I must have a bazillion songs on my mp3 player. Okay, not really but I do have a lot. Today I was told to set my playlist on random and share the first ten that play. So here goes.

1. Show Me the Meaning of Being Lonely – Backstreet Boys
2. Tallulah – Sonata Arctica
3. Forever – Kamelot
4. Angel – Aerosmith
5. Cry – Faith Hill
6. Giving In – Adema
7. Brown Eyes – Lady Gaga
8. Eva – Nightwish
9. Monster – Lady Gaga
10. Inside the Fire – Disturbed

So what I’ve learned from this is I have a broad range of music tastes…and maybe a few too many Lady Gaga songs.

The Army

14 Oct

Today’s assignment is proving a little difficult for me. It tells me to share a picture of my family. Well, guess what. I have lots of pictures of each individual person, but ever since Lola was born either Johnny or I have been behind the camera and we don’t have a single picture of all of us together other than this one:

and this one makes it a little difficult to tell what Lola looks like...

So in light of that I’m also going to share a recent picture of each of us and tell you a little about my family.

The Mama

So this is me. I’m 29 for the second year in a row, and I’m the Mommy. I love scrapbooking, baking and of course blogging! Sometimes I wonder what I did before the kids came along but then I remember – I slept through the night and used the bathroom without someone yelling through the door!

Not the Mama

This picture pretty much sums up Johnny. Wherever he is, the kids aren’t far behind. He’s almost 28, he likes photography and gaming, and he’s the love of my life. He’s a great dad, and always helps out in any area that help is needed.

The Hooligan

James is our oldest. Our wild child. He can’t stay still or keep quiet if his life depends on it. He likes Bakugan and Wii and the outdoors and all those other things that an 8 year old loves. This boy changed my life and continues to change it daily. He is precious to me. People judge me because I allow him to live with his grandparents, but they don’t realize that I just love him too much to make him leave.

The Genius

Hayden is our smart one. He’s going to be 6 in November and he’s wowing his teachers with how much he knows. He’s a very high-maintenence child with a lot of other difficulties, but brainpower isn’t one of them. He loves reading, Ironman, drawing and building things.

The Explorer

Silas is curious and inquisitive and wants to know the hows and whys of everything. He’ll be four in December and is into everything because he wants to know how it works and what it does. He’s a cuddler, a lover and a bully all rolled into one. He’s big for his age and doesn’t mind pushing back when he’s pushed!

The Princess

The first girl after three boys, Lola just sits on her throne while we all worship at her feet. She is three months old today and already knows who rules the roost – She does. An amazingly pleasant baby, she’s usually all smiles and coos and her giggle is to die for! I think she’s the prettiest baby in the world. I may be biased, but I’m allowed because I’m her mommy!

So there you have the army…and that reminds me; I need to schedule family photos!

Love, Me.

13 Oct

Dear You,

I’m normally the kind of person who keeps it all inside. I don’t dwell on things or hold grudges. I roll with the punches and live one day at a time. I don’t see the point in allowing myself to get upset because it doesn’t usually change things much, but just the other day you hurt me deeply.

At first I tried to brush it off and act like it didn’t bother me, but it did. It kept me up that night and it nagged at the back of my mind all the next day. I’ve been trying to understand your thought process behind it, but I’m just not understanding. From where I’m standing, you’re being selfish, plain and simple. I’ve sacrificed a lot for you. I’ve given you something so precious to me that it hurts every time I think about it – so I try not to think about it – but it seems like that’s still not enough for you. You want to keep taking and taking and act like I’m the selfish one because I request one simple thing. It’s not even a big thing, but in your mindset of wanting it all, my request for this one small thing has suddenly become a huge deal.

I just want you to know that I’m not backing down this time. I’ve let you walk all over me and continue to take, but no more. This one simple thing will be mine and I don’t care how much of a fuss you kick up or how much drama you cause. Bring it on. I’ve found my hill to die on, and this is it. I love you, but I’m not letting you take this from me. Not when I’ve already lost so much.

I do love you. You are very special to me and always will be. However, I can’t stand by and let this one go. Please reconsider making an ordeal out of this because ultimately you will lose and it’s just going to drive a wedge between us. I’ve given, now it’s your turn.



(Today’s assignment was to write a letter to someone who has hurt us. This is mine.)